Been diagnosed with various intensity's of depression, anxiety, and insomnia. I believe I have a lowkey case of OCD but haven't been diagnosed with it.
Been depressed since the age of 6. Guilt has saved my life many times.
Hallucinogenics provided me with a new perspective. A great perspective at first but then absolutely horrible perspectives on multiple different occasions.
I've learned that living is about learning and not much more. I manage to make it through by being an observer. I take mental notes of what I feel, what's happening to me and I come up with complex conclusions as to why and how it's happening to me. I have transformed from someone who thought irrationally 24/7 to someone who thinks rationally a huge majority of the time. Mental illnesses mean nothing. We are human, we know nothing.
I've felt the most human while depressed as opposed to any other time in my life. Depression is beautiful, you just have to turn your views around. No, I've never self harmed, no I wouldn't condone trying to be depressed because it truly is a terrifying and torturing experience. In the end, you come into this world alone, you leave this world alone. You are the only person in the world that'll ever think the way you do, see the way you do. No one should be afraid of loneliness even though it is against our nature. Instead of trying to fight depression with mainstream techniques, learn to experience it instead. Observe.
Good can not exist without the opposite. You must endure negative times to feel the true meaning of positivity.
I'm also not condoning the use of drugs to fix your pains.