OT: Bro, I see where you're coming from because just over a year ago I was in your shoes.
I am extremely intelligent and I am brilliant with logic but I messed around in school and didn't concentrate in my exams, therefore I had nothing to show for how clever I am. I was basically defenceless.
I got lucky and got myself a job teaching people IT; IT being the thing I love the most.
You may think "Yeah that's all well and good but what does this have to do with me?"
Bare with me...
I decided that one day I would get up and do something about my pathetic, failed attempt of a life so far.
So, I went and handed my CV into as many places as I could. (I didn't care what they were, I just needed a job)
Still no luck.
Still keep in mind that I had fuck all money to live on at all, I was relying on my parents for accommodation, food and everything else.
I decided to try even further and do something more. I attended a few events where people gave their advice about career pathways and things like that. I found them useful and at the end of all of the events, the last one had a lot of employers who were looking to give people a chance for 6 months on the national minimum wage. The one I went for was a simple administration position.
A year and a half later I am still with this company that gave me the chance I needed. However, I am no longer a simple administration person, I am one of their best teachers for IT.
I know I've gone on a bit about myself there but I thought it was necessary.
What I'm trying to get at mate is that no matter how messed up you think your life is, it is always worse for someone else.
Focus, concentration, dedication and commitment are what get people through life; nothing is free.
If you have a passion for something then follow it! Nobody has the right to tell you otherwise, it is none of their business and they can politely fuck right off.
If you want to go to this school and the $40 000 is stopping you then try ringing some authorities and ask if they have any schemes available to get you into that college.
If that fails then do not give up, there is always hope.
Try attending another college or just try and get a job at somewhere crappy. You can always work your way up. (For example, I know a guy who got a job as a "drink maker" at HSBC in York, England and now he is the Manager of the main store)
Bro, I know how hard things may appear to be at times and for me I felt like giving it all up, I even tried at one point but you realise who is actually there to support you.
In conclusion, I am telling you to try everything and throw away nothing. Take any chance you get because eventually, if you try hard enough then you will succeed.
I hope this helps mate.
Last edited by Chester Bennington; 09-22-2011 at 06:33 PM.
Okay, I've seen what fucking around will do yo you. My sister, I love her, but's she's dumb. She got into an excellent university in Boston for speech therapy, a very well paying job. But instead of applying herself, she would come visit her douche bag BF he didn't even care. She flunked. She got into another decent college, talked smack to the teacher, flunked. Now she's 26, pregnant, engaged to a great guy, but one who has no education or money. She is completely dependent on my parents for money, and still goes to college for Health Administration. A horrible major. Despite the fact that my mom begged her to go for registered nurse.
TL;DR: DO NOT fuck around. Take your education very seriously. Learn to apply yourself and get yourself a good rep with the teachers. A good education means a good job, meaning good money. I hope you get into college, wish you the best of luck.