now lemme tell you a little story of a happy kid in a trailer park. yes happy and trailer park because i didnt know anything but that, and...i was a kid. my mom and "dad" got along most of the time, bickered and fought sometimes, but nothing abnormal.
until one day....
sitting on my bed playing my snes my mom walked in with tears in her eyes, told me to turn off the game and start packing, we are going to live with grandma, my brain shut off at the time when she was explaining why.
I was lied to for 10 years, thought this guy was my real father, idolized him, wanted to be him. my world was shattered, moms and dads never break up....boyfriends and girlfriends do. what is this?
when that was taken away, what did i have to idolize, what did i want to be?
better than my real father who got my mom knocked up at 16 years old (he was around the same age in school with her and everything...)
because of this i have a hard time trusting anyone, especially women as previously stated.
whats left for me? i live with my mom, heading back to college, things are not great but life goes on.
life can be rough sometimes, you will pull through. There are people out there that have had way WAY more messed up childhoods than mine, im only halfway F%^&ed up!!!!