why the hell should i keep arguing you guys will never get the point.
You don't get the point. The internet is not a a facility for you to vent your "depression" or "suicidal tendencies". You think you're so fucked then go seek professional help. We aren't your psychiatrist.
@RJ I took a meat clever and smashed her skull in, then stabby her abdomens, I then sexed her dead decaying body , and hid it under my bed for 2nds when i'm feeling rather lonely. THat's probably why you are turned on, we might have the same fetish.