The Deceit of My Own True Friendship

**monkeybook** · 06-30-2010

/me
The Deceit of My Own True Friendship

It happened one day
After a rather quick stay

I started out late
On a forgettable date

I found deep under
My hair was in slumber

I regretted my jokes
With a few small cokes

But not long after the chase
It came like a slap in the face

What seemed to go so swell
Didn’t end up so well

So I started to question
What felt like most suction

The ones I thought were friends
The fake bond made it’s descend

I started to see my fault
Annoyance is not the right vault

And then I felt greatly lost
I would cry if there wasn’t a cost

My life is a big black hole
Only fueled by the sinful black coal

I wonder if it’s the rightful time
To change my world with out a crime

The mystery is quickly unfolding
Most aren’t caring and are quickly scolding

As my day became most silent
I fall in despair without the violent

Then as my despair starts to show
My real friends no longer stay low

I start to ponder even more
Can I be the man in the other door?

Then as I stare, I start to see
There is a big difference between him and me

Is it still possible to steal to love?
Or is it the amazingly elusive dove?

I see now that we are all a mystery
Everyone just needs that one simple key

However the real question does show
Am I something that’s value is low?

But then I think God plans for me
Like part of his carefully tended sea

Perhaps it’s not for me to choose
Which way will win and which one will lose

As I attempt a second chance
I am always shunned without a glance

And when they decide to give me a try
I always mess up, I wish I knew why

I wonder what would have went on
If I wasn’t the same annoying con

Now they don’t give a trying thought
When it comes to my own personal sought

So I wish I had all the keys
To figure out their mysteries

As my habits start their strike
I always try to take a hike

But as I make my way up the hill
The same old things come straight to kill

As I try my best to still defend
They’re not exactly my very best friend

Throughout my life I have my ups and downs
But I try my best to rid of frowns

I like to make life what I think
This is exactly why my ship will still sink

Maybe one day, they’ll all see
That there’s a better side of me

Until that day, I shall sit and wait
And prepare for the worst possible fate

As I write, I seem to find
Most new people don’t seem to mind

Hopefully, unlike last time
The note I hit will be their chime

I will try my best to learn from mistakes
And stay away from the chocolate cakes

While looking back at my greatest times
I still wonder how I had hit the right chimes

So for now we will all wonder how time goes
And how my pitiful lessons help my lifetime shows