If you don't think every day is a good day, try missing one
Under your bed
You want to see fucked up? Google 1 lunatic 1 ice pick. It's some guy who kills his boyfriend, has sex with his dead corpse and cuts his arms and legs off and shit with an ice pick and feeds it to his dog. The guy then later sent the body parts to random places through the mail. You think is fucked up? You wish. There is much worse.