Son, let me tell you how my life is.
I have never consoled in a single person, I lead a double life, my father died when I was two years old due to not taking his medications (my mom divorced him before this). I have never felt love, I can't ever find love because I constantly live in fear of people judging me for who I really am. I went to catholic school for six long years when I was "the fat new kid". I seriously have nowhere to go to to release the pressure locked in my mind other then the internet. I don't trust anybody.
Learn to pussy up and not give up because there are people out there who have it a lot worse then you and I.