Shit happens.Okay so how about this one then:
I've never really been good at getting female attention, and I aren't the best looking guy. Also, I'm actually quite shy when it comes to asking a girl out and I don't think I could actually do it again apart from the one time I did. I can't even ask girls I like if we can just hang out because I'm too afraid of rejection.
When I was fourteen or fifteen I started going out with this girl and everything was pretty swell. It was quite a while before we did anything sexual but I was happy. After a while we started splitting up more and more but then got back together. When I lost my V to her it was so bad. It was in a friends bedroom whilst my friend was having...erm...lesbian experiences with my other friend. It was so bad and wrong but I carried on at the time. After a while she started slowly manipulating me and we broke up for a while...I slept with another girl and went out with her best friend and then another girl I knew in the space of about three months. Eventually we got back together and worked things out. We finally broke up when I was away in Sheffield visiting my grandparents. She called me one day and just like "I want to break up because it isn't working." I was like "I don't want to but if you're unhappy then okay."
I was heartbroken, nearly two years had just gone down the toilet and there was nothing I could do. Five minutes later she called me again and was like "Don't be mad but I've got a new boyfriend." She's still with him to this day and I talk to her every now and then.
I'd had no relationships since then and three years later, now in 2011 there was this one girl who was a few years younger than me but we connected and were so close. I was 18 and she was 15 *do not fucking judge me*, she was also my little sisters best friend. We never had sex at all. We met a few times and she knew I liked her but she didn’t like me the same until one day she chose another guy over me and realised it was a mistake. She came back to me and I met her for the first time and she kissed me and chose me over this other guy. A few months later she went with a friend to a Bat Mitzvah festival and met this other guy. She immediately fell for him and it was fucking horrific. My world crashed and burned into flames and she was happy. After months of hurt I moved on..
In July time I met another girl and we had a brief period of two months together, we had sex twice but did loads of other things together. A few days into us going out with each other, the girl from my previous relationship rang me up on the phone, pleading for me to come back because she loves me, which was true. I wanted to so much but it wasn’t right and wasn’t fair on the girl I was currently with. I said no and broke her heart, like she had done with mine. I did do the wrong thing though and met her a few times and fingered her. – Her first sexual experience.
After that I didn’t see her again and I split up with the girl I was going out with shortly after. She doesn’t know what I did though. – Not that it matters as the reason she broke up with me is because I wasn’t tanned enough.
A few months later there was this other girl...my God she fucked my head up. She got on the same bus as me for as long as I can remember getting it. She had a boyfriend at the time and we never said a word to each other for about a year or so, just smiled at each other occasionally. One day she added me on Facebook and we got talking...a lot. She invited me to town a few times but I was broke so I couldn’t go. One day when we were texting she was in Town, as it was a Saturday night. I told her to come and meet me as a joke which she said “Okay.” So she met me at 3AM and we got some duvet’s/blankets from my house and went and slept in the park in the tunnel. We talked all night and it was something really special. I could feel myself attracted to her already. After a while of like kissing and stuff on the bus, things got more serious. We thought she was pregnant with my child and stuff and then we started preparing ahead and started looking at houses and flats to move into, all the while she was still with her boyfriend. She made me promises and things to which I believed.
Eventually it all came to an end and she headfucked me so hard I got diagnosed with depression and all that shit by my Doctor.
As of now I am talking to the girl who is my little sister’s best friend. She has a boyfriend now and I am so jealous, not choosing her over the other girl was by biggest mistake in 20 years and I can’t make up for it as she won’t give me the chance.
Conclusion: You think you got it bad, huh? I can’t even get a girls attention and the brief period that I did it all went to pot every time. You should count yourself lucky.