I was just looking back at my old times on MPGH and I realised what a stupid kid I had been; telling stupid fucked up lies; disrespecting people for the wrong reasons and so on and so forth. Though, there's on lie which I honestly regret telling and I should be perma banned for it as there was no need for me to even to tell such a stupid, childish ( In a way, it is, as I was younger(er) and I was just a stupid little fuck head ). A lot of you may know what I'm talking about, atleast the older members.
I stupidly, and I honestly deeply regret it, lied about the disease I had.
To all older members who knew -
Jabuuty, Dave, Liz, Obama ( If you're still here ), Arun ( And more ) - I deeply apologize for it and I honestly think I should be banned for what I've done.
Though I'd like to say - I've completely changed, as I hope you all see. Back then I was a stupid kid on the internet; lying about my age, my profession, this. I'm not sure why I did it, to be recognized, I'm not sure.
I'm not trying to make an excuse but I think ( I think ) I said it a week, or maybe earlier, after a family member ( Grandfather ) had died and I don't know if I wanted to have attention or I was just fucked.
I've realized what I've done, and just how disgusting and horrible it was to do so. It's a terrible disease and I hope that no-one here on MPGH gets it, and if you do, my thoughts are with you and I hope you recover.
I was actually thinking of making another account and starting fresh, but I see no point in doing so and it'd be a pussy way out, and I'd still have the huge ton of guilt laying on my chest.
I'm sincerely sorry, and to any one who as it I deeply apologize.
Rage at me, whatever, do it. I deserve every bit of it.
People make mistakes man, it's human nature. Don't beat yourself up too much, everyone lies on the internet.. everyone. Granted, lying about having a disease is very immature and desperate. But at least you fessed up, you're a few years late but whatever. I vote that you don't get permbanned, there should definitely be a consequence, but karma will come around eventually. Nuff said.
In a way I respect you for owning up to your lie, but in another way I frown upon the attention craving in you for this will draw attention your way.
I do not crave attention, any more. As proven by the lie I told years ago; I used to. I've changed, this post isn't for attention, nor is it for respect. It is to tell the truth as I felt, and still do feel guilty for what I have done.
VIP Support // May 2011 CF Minion // January 2012 Newsforce // August 2012 Minion+ // March 2013 Moderator // August 2014 Former Staff // January 2015 General Minion // July 2015 Publicist // December 2015