I wish the Summer semester would hurry up so I can start College.
At the same time, I'm turning into a sociopath. I always fantasize about torturing some random guy in front of everyone. Beating him, cutting, stabbing, sledge hammers, fire, etc. I have these fantasies once or twice a day. Plotting the most gruesome murder and smiling and giggling with myself. Sometimes I just want to squash people like a bug.
I need help. I see a therapist every Wednesday but I'm afraid to tell her about this. I'm more afraid about how it will affect my life in college. Its been close to 4 years since I've been in a school setting surrounded by people.