Woops, i messed up on my other thread, i got Lotz of stuff, but i figured i didn't have time. I wrote this.....Wednesday? I had 30 min, and i started thinking.........
Ignorance is bliss
Lately I've realized what the world really is, in essence it's a sad/cruel thing. Now I'm not saying this for pity or for you to pity others. What I'm saying is that the term " ignorance is bliss" is very, very true. To ignore the reality of a situation can generate significantly more happiness than facing what it rly is. I've been in many occasasions where one person will often erupt or be a complete asshole to a random person. The rest of the party just ignores the person, they have no desire to adress what just happened, for it would take away from theirself preserved happiness
The phrase " the truth hurts" is often used as some sort of comeback but it's very true just on it's own. To me, the true nature of a person is often ignored, like the turning of a head. If a person shows their true nature wether it be "good" or "bad", people will ignore it for the sake of their perception of what would make them happy i garantee you. I'm no different, when a person shows his true colors, I just keep on treatin him the way I have been.
It disgust me but does not surprise me.
Something I realize but do not find interesting.
Something that's sad but is ignored, something that is but is not.
I feel my happiness slip away to the truth but it return to lies.
No matter what I look at now, I find ways to escape the truth, to avoid what's really there, to live in a world of enertertainment rather than a world of happiness, I see all around me cheap entertainment, nothing but toys for children. I am hypocritical in what I do and say but I keep going on. Is all reality just a dream? Am I nothing more than what I am? I can do anything, I can rule the world, I can save millions, I can become as smart or athletic as I want, but for what END?! To do something to prove another wrong, what does that gain me? I must keep living but yet I know there is no point. No matter what I do I will remain what I am, a human, a person, something that dies yet lives. Something that will leave memories for others and have memories of my own. My existence is pointless yet meaningful, as if both sides of a coin were melded together. I will alwas remain me, yet I will try to change for others. Emotions will flow yet my existence will remain unchanged. I can be a jack of all trades but a master of none. I can master what I can but will it matter? Will my existence matter? These thoughts are all my unique individual, but some will think these again. What have I to lose, to gain? What difference will it make? Should I even care about the truth? If it does not produce what I want, I can ignore it, but to what end! I feel like there are so many influences, yet none are right or wrong. What I feel, is that important? Surely emotions are the defining factor of humanity, but they are something everyone has a unique of, yet they are all repeated. Is the continuis cycle of humanity something I need pay attention to(?), for none can break it. None can withstand it's current. Yet here I am, questioning by existence just as so many have done and so many will do. Religion is just another inlfuence, no matter how I look at it, even in my faith, it's just another escape route a way for people to blind themselves from the truth, not that of the afterlife, but that of the everyday life. I see so many people enjoying the bliss of ignorance yet I find myself asking the idiotic question of "why?". Why do they ignore what is real, what can bring them sadness? That question is something obvious, yet I still ask myself. My best guess is that by brain goes with what pleasures me, and not what is reality. This belief is at the same time not a belief, mind can't wrap around what is not "there" or "possible". The existence of mankind as a whole is pointless, yet with reason. It's in one word a paradox. Me saying this will effect you, yet that won't matter, it's just another influence, add that to the thousands or millions you will experiance in your day or the billions you will experiance in your life time, it will be a drop of rain in the monsoon of your life.
Lots of text.
I write this for no reason yet for any and all of them.
anyways, i understand and i've been down this very road. fortunately in my case, this chick was next to me when i was writing basically what you wrote down. She told me i think too much and that i should just enjoy anything the way i can. aside from that she told me i needed a GF, which she became later on.
life is too short to be worrying about things as such.