Everyone Hates ECsTasy

[HosteD]

Ok a foreword.... I dont care how others feel about me really but theres a trend in my relationships both romantic and platonic that Ive noticed......

Every one fucking hates me. I started noticing it when I joined some forums. People would respond to my posts with contempt and anger. It didnt really bug me too much but I thought it was strange that so many people independently grew to dislike me in so many locations. I joined a few forums in a weeks time and couple more over the course of a few months and in every single forum I became an antagonist. People just tended to dislike me. Then it got me to thinking of my ex girlfriends. In the last few years 3 out of 4 girlfriends Ive had wont even talk to me because of their extreme hatred for me (pretty much in their own words)

Today my grandma (who raised me so is basically my mom) got in a heated discussion with me in which she said she didnt like me and never has (she even said she hated me), that the rest of the family (her kids not my fathers side) didnt like me etc etc. Normally that alone wouldnt have bothered me but because I was already thinking about how hated I am it kinda made me stop to wonder.

In my life I have acquaintances and a few friends (I dont really hang out too much and its kinda on a surface level) who like me (atleast I think they do.....). Then I have an overwhelming amount of people who just plain out hate me. Finding fights to start has never really been my thing but arguments just seem to follow me. Being rational I can rule out that everyone else is just a dick. So now Im left with the problem being me and for the life of it I cant figure out why Im so notorious.

You know sometimes I wonder if this I dont care ego is simply my way of covering up an emptiness. Cognitive dissonance coming into play to tell me hey its ok that youre alone and hated, you dont care anyways. Then sometimes I wonder if Im missing something. Maybe theres a part of me I lost somewhere along the way. I just dont know how I feel. Ive read enough about psychology starting as a kid to adequately mess up my ability to diagnose myself. Unfortunately it makes it hard for others to help as well

[Sjoerd]

I read what you had to say in your other thread. I know where you are coming from believe me. We live in a world where many are starving while other's have too much. And I'm not talking about food or cars. Loneliness is a "commodity" that can be cashed in on. Look at all the matchmaking sites out there. I was meeting women that way before the internet evolved out of the 2400 baud modems we used back in the day to log onto "bulletin boards". It was a lot easier then, less paranoia. Now, I find them to be a waste of time. I like this site better, real friends are more important. Sometimes it's best to put away dating/marriages and look at the bigger picture: survival.
I saw the word anxiety several times in that thread. People on their own are very prone to anxiety attacks. You think to yourself, "Who can I call if I feel one coming on?" Then, realizing there's no one to call, or to come visit, it's likely to happen. I can tell you that you have the advantage of being young. Good luck and keep posting on new developments.
Sjoerd

[HosteD]

tHE FUCK how is this copy pasta you blind or you high nigga

[BassSR]

A Lonely Life Forums - Everyone hates me... and Im not being emo

COPY PASTA


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wow tl;dr .

[HosteD]

A Lonely Life Forums - Everyone hates me... and Im not being emo

COPY PASTA


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you found it out

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you found it out

nigga've busted

[BassSR]

nigga've busted

that made no sense

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that made no sense

that how do u say it in Arabic

[HosteD]

HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA about taytuy such a ignorance and dumb

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HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA about taytuy such a ignorance and dumb

u just mad cus' i'm being smart /me

[HosteD]

if you call that smart /d

[BassSR]

u just mad cus' i'm being smart /me

seriously.

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speak english

not some ghetto ass arab/english slang

[-Viibez-]

seriously.

how old are you?


this is an english forum.

speak english

not some ghetto ass arab/english slang

Ghetto Ass Arab / English slang ahahhahaaa.

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seriously.

how old are you?


this is an english forum.

speak english

not some ghetto ass arab/english slang

Do I look like I'm speaking Japanese to you?