I am so fucking fucked

[radnomguywfq3]

>Be 19, turning 20 April 19th
>Study hard as fuck at school, still getting mediocre grades
>Parents expect me to take full 4 year engineering degree
>Probably won't make it into the 2nd year of, not enough money
>Parents expect me to get into Co-Op or some stupid bs - GPA too low
>Took out 5k loan in my name for School
>Shits going down April 17th
>Worst. Birthday. Ever.

Let me predict the next four years of my train-wreck of a life:

First, I obviously break the news to my parents. They're going to be pissed off, I would wager my step dad tries to kick me out.
Portraying me as the worst filth on this planet
Then, being poor as fuck (and kicked out), get some shitty McD job (if I even can...)
Spend the next four years alone and poor as shit paying off my loan with petty cash plus interest
Never go back to school and settle with this shit of a life I now have. Epic failure in contrast to my family
/amInsecureAndBeta so will probably remain pretty fucked until I die.

Yup, thats it. My entire life in a fucking paragraph.

I'm seriously fucking depressed right now.

Anyways, I am also paranoid, or maybe I just think the worst in people. I have grown to believe that my 'friends' are just using me to help them with their shit. I am obviously the least significant 'friend.' I'm not sure why, but I am a horrible person to hang out with - I can't have normal fluid conversation I have no fucking idea why but I just can't.

[yugurt]

damn how did this happen to you?

[Ahmad]

I'm sowwy

[bowlcut]

Well there's your problem. You're using meme arrows on a site that isn't nerdchan. Quit being such a bowlcut and you won't fuck up as much.


In all serious, don't give up. Not just yet. Just do whatever you can to keep your head above water.

[[MPGH]arunforce]

So basically you're saying you're gonna RQ engineering. (DIDNT SEE THAT COMING!!!!!!!!)

On a more serious note, either you aren't studying hard enough, or you're simply not cut out to be an engineer.

For people like me, it's rather natural, I don't have to study and I can still make good grades.

If the physics is your hard point, CS is more suited formore math orientated work.

[666HiddenMaster666]

I can't have normal fluid conversation I have no fucking idea why but I just can't.

Maybe because you're an introvert?

[Pheles2]

damn, that sucks but honestly i think you dug yourself your own grave.

either you actually aren't studying enough or you're just not going to be a good engineer. did your parents pressure you into it?

[[MPGH]Dave84311]

Don't worry Jetamay, you always have a place in my basement

[KingDot]

That's rough keep studying. Engineering is a bitch, but once completed, it should be reasonably rewarding.

[Color]

Sad to hear man..

[[MPGH]Shane]

Computer science is the shinizzle . Don't give up jeta

[[MPGH]Doc]

Have you tried selling jetaOS?

[[MPGH]Ethereal]

Don't be so overly critical.

You're just under stress and it seems it's turning into anxiety.
Take a few steps back, get your bearings together then hit the books hard again.
Doubt is your biggest enemy when it comes to school.
You just have to keep telling yourself you can do it, otherwise you'll be stuck in a funk.

I had some issues in my Calculus II courses during my first year of college.
I've never really had much interest in math, but it never gave me a hard time until I got out of H.S.
Might have had something to do with the fact that I was abusing drugs and Alcohol but whatevs.
I never wanted to just say fuck it and give up until I took those courses,
but when you have goals in life you don't make it there by quitting.
You just have to envision yourself making it there in the future.
Either way, I doubt you'll end up working at McDonalds.
Even if you don't do the Engineering thing, there are always alternatives.

[Mr.Seyeko]

:'( shits going down on my Birthday.. now imma have a horrible bday knowing that you are having a terrible day

[maronpatsy]

I don't care about ranks or honourable ribbon.