For all you people out there still playing this game; How the fuck can you still play it?

I am 15th on Xbox and I freaking won money in a tournament a couple of months ago. I was THAT good and I still hated the game. A few weeks after me and my team won, we just stopped playing. OFC winning money like a PRO is fun, but the amount of rage I've done while getting that good, I don't know how I didn't suicide...

This game sucks balls, how do you keep motivated to play THIS game, when there are many other games you can play?