Philosophy

This has got to be a joke.. "express myself" Aint nobody got time fo dat.

Im sorry but I have no emotions.. I have alexithymia google it.

Because you're a mindless mannequin.
Just like a lot of the world.

Go jerk off to some MLP while you smoke your grit and think you're gangster.

I'm not going to apologize for responding to your jump the gun answer.
If you do have a green card, don't you ever philosophize about what things could have been, what if you had lived somewhere else.
What if that girl you really like didn't reject you? What if.

Just because you claim to lack feelings or being unable to feel them or judge a situation based on emotion.
Doesn't mean you can't stop and think, why did I do this, what would have happened if I had done this instead.
So, let me set you off then, what if that girl hadn't rejected you? Would you have become a different person, would she maybe have opened you up and helped you feel these feelings you lack, maybe she'd fix you, what if.

Pondering about something is not at all the same thing as being full of regret.
Granted at this second my life is pretty empty but it's completely unrelated to what if's.
Thinking about what you could have done differently to affect it towards a different outcome won't change the fact of what you've done and any smart individual will know this and not obsess over what they've could've done differently, they'd be thinking, how can I go about this better IF something similar were to come up again. Look at it as a self-analyzing and self-help thing.

Wouldn't you like to know what would have happened if you fought back to that bully from school that you didn't have the energy or strength to say I've had enough of this shit, how it might have helped and saved someone else, what would YOU do if you could change the way you think.

Just got to work twords what you want. If you put a lot of effort into it you will get where you want to be.

If you could control feelings, then they'd be thoughts.
Which is partially true, so with years of practicing I think you could actually be able to retain some sort of control of your feelings.
Elaborate more on the dreams, I intend to have a wall of text everywhere here.

Will you succeed in life? That's a huge question, one I bet a lot of people think about, what would you consider to be a "success" in life, where do you want to be.

So you still have feelings, you just don't know how to utilize them, heartbreak can be tough if the emotions are deep enough.
I should know, I've become a pretty cold, unstable and controlling as a result of constant let downs, somewhere down the road eventually I think everyone loses their will to fight if something doesn't feel like it's budging, ever.

Now we're getting somewhere, you're not alone in suffering from so called Zombieism, I often just drift along, thinking, to then look up and suddenly I'm somewhere else, drifting in and out in lack of better judgement on how to deal with a situation.
I'm certain that if you we're presented with a similar decision on how you could have approached things, would you stay your path or would you change?
What if, next time, you get the girl.

At this point in my life I would change nothing, had you asked me 2 years ago I would have changed everything. But in the last 2 years my life has fallen into place and I wouldn't want to fuck that up.

I tend to find myself pondering about the future and how can I make it perfect, its a silly thought but I believe its possible. I believe that I can become what I want to be. Everything I imagine can happen seems realistic to me, could just be I'm young and naive and life is going to give me fat fucking wakeup call but I can't think of all the bad things that can happen, I much prefer thinking of the good things that will happen.

It's not at all silly to try and affect your future and those around you to make sure everything is golden and fine, because people generally just want to live their life in peace, enjoy it before they pass.

I'd say thinking about the good things would keep you happier in the long run, I unfortunately appear to be seemingly unable to do so.
I usually only see the negative things, the shit people don't want to see, that's basically all I feel I see. So for your sake, be aware that shit MAY happen, but remember that you should try and make the best of the situation, live for the day.

I also have problem planning things, I can't live in the future, I'm stuck in the past, and I live for the day.
Illogical? Maybe, the brain isn't all logical.

People tell me, only you set your limits, and I to some degree agree with that, so if you want something bad enough, you will do your best to get it.
Never settle.

Elaborate.