Am I weird? 18+

To begin with, I like to have sex with multiple partners simultaneously. I am kinky and perverted and enjoy rough play. What I like the most is when guys strangle me while I receive it from behind. True satisfaction I can get only when weapon is at least 6 inches. But lets pause for a moment and start from the scratch. First time I felt this bodyful sensation was at 12 years of age with two best friends of mine, one boy Marko and one girl ,which was my bf, Julia. I can remember like it was yesterday, we were watching some, at that age unspeakable movie and Julia proposed idea to try reconstruct some scenes from it. At that age we did not feel ashamed of our bodies nor had deeper connection with ourselves and even though it was weird at first we all had that same thought that there is nothing wrong in touching one others bodies. After all, it's not like we were lying, stealing or doing anything harmful. Julia removed her clothes first, I followed and Marko followed afterwards. We were speechlessly staring at each others naked bodies for a couple of minutes. Marko could not resist urge and made first move by grabbing my hand, Julia smiled ,said something I could not hear as my head was spinning, partially because of warmness that my body produced like never before. Then Julia started gently touching Marko by the belly. Marko then came closer to her making expression like he wanna kiss her. Julia moved her lips to his and kissed him, it was awkward kiss. I also wanted to kiss somebody and it seemed Julia noticed that and moved her head from Marko's towards me. I saw in movies and series couples kissing with tongue and I wanted to try that so I sticked out my tongue and started pushing it into her mouth. I did not know what I am doing and looking at it now it must have been embarrassing. We played like that for a couple of minutes and then we moved slowly to touching each others more private bodyparts. Marko touched me by the joints and I returned him the favor. His penis was aroused, it was kinda weird. My nipples were hard and Julias too. Julia then attempted to suck his penis while I was massaging him from the back. He did moan quietly which made me smile. After Julia I too did tried to please him by sucking his penis. His penis was covered with sticky substance I later learned was called seamen but I can not recall if he had ejaculation. After that unforgettable experience we three gathered every following weekend in house of one whose parents weren't home where we would experience new things and experiment with our bodies. Years after I started seeing older boys with whom I would soon after start sexual relationships. Some of them were even in late twenties but they were pretty and I did not mind, plus they would always buy me things. Even though I had many sexual encounters with both sexes and had dozens of orgies I could never do it with guys I found to be ugly or fat. I am adult now and am still addicted to bodily stimulations. Like I said in beginning, I am constantly in search for new partners who are open minded like me. But do not judge me so quickly. I never lie and always confess beforehand that I do not want steady relationship but rather wild sexual adventure. Despite that I sometimes feel like I am amoral person, would you say I am? Thing that makes me little sad is thinking of my parents. They say they support me in everything I decide and that they understand me but I am concerned they are sad inside knowing I will never have normal family nor give them biological grandkids. Being gay is not easy at all... I could never be with girl and marry one just for purpose of getting offsprings. I think kids should not be raised by parents that does not share strong love. What can I say, women do not attract me. Even though my parents sometimes brought some innocent girl to have sex with me and my "boyfriends" had brought girls in numerous occasions to party where I would be compelled to satisfy some of them, it was fine. I enjoy making joy to others, girl or man. But with girls I never felt the same excitement as doing it with men. There is some unspeakable guilty feeling in my mind when we unite and our testicles rub against each others that makes me lose my mind... I think I said enough, I believe you too will understand me in some way. It would make me very happy if you could share your story as well in comment down below.
Also I hope nobody will find this offensive, especially admins. Please do not be judgmental and unrighteous by deleting this post or sanctioning me in any way as it is clearly stated 18+ in title. Also it would be wrongful to judge this post for its content solely from subjective point of view and should be noticed that gay and extraordinary people have right to express themselves as well.
Thank you for your time. Julia & Marko <3

I read the first eleven words and came to the conlusion that yes, you're weird. TL;DR: He's weird.

EDIT: Read the rest of the post. Yeah, still weird. To me, anyways. I know it's normal to you - hence not weird for people that share your perspective and viewpoint.