Originally Posted by jonnyboy9985
Why I hate you so fucking much.
I hate you because you were never there. You fucked me over, caused me years of confusion. Made me think you were the greatest, when you were an idiot. I hate you because everything you want me to be, is not what I WANT! I am not a fucking slave, I am not your fucking "n***er" as you called me when you grounded me. I hate you for so many reasons. I hate you for everything you did for me, and to me. You mock everything I have ever liked, you crash my dreams of becoming a computer genius, you push me down, you freak out for NO fucking reason, nothing I do is right, nothing you say ever helped me. You were the fuckin reason I went suicidal so many times... 3 times before summer break? Fuckin come on... I locked you out because when I tried to reach out to the world, everyone stepped on me, and expected me to be fine... I tried to stand tall, but all I ever did was get pushed down, again and again. I fucking hate you... The last words I will ever say to you is "I never said I love you, because I don't. I... Hate... You" and I will never understand why you even tried to make up for something you did. You do one thing right for every 5 things you do against me. You fuckin take all of your anger and frustration out on me, and you play favorites with all 3 of us kids... I am the one who is the hated kid. You want me to be part of the family, to care about you, to do all this shit, but I hate you so much. Nothing you can ever do will change that. You will bend over as backwards for the girls, but you wont do a thing for me. May as well tell me to get out. I. Hate. You. You never deserved me, you were the one that still makes me feel unimportant, insignificant, and unwanted. I have barely any feelings other than hate, and anger, and boredom, and confusion. Only one person keeps me going on strong, keeps me alive, and makes me feel loved, and wanted... It sure as fuck ain't you. So get the fuck out of my life, and leave me be! Now to return to my faded self...
I hate you because you were never there. You fucked me over, caused me years of confusion. Made me think you were the greatest, when you were an idiot. I hate you because everything you want me to be, is not what I WANT! I am not a fucking slave, I am not your fucking "n***er" as you called me when you grounded me. I hate you for so many reasons. I hate you for everything you did for me, and to me. You mock everything I have ever liked, you crash my dreams of becoming a computer genius, you push me down, you freak out for NO fucking reason, nothing I do is right, nothing you say ever helped me. You were the fuckin reason I went suicidal so many times... 3 times before summer break? Fuckin come on... I locked you out because when I tried to reach out to the world, everyone stepped on me, and expected me to be fine... I tried to stand tall, but all I ever did was get pushed down, again and again. I fucking hate you... The last words I will ever say to you is "I never said I love you, because I don't. I... Hate... You" and I will never understand why you even tried to make up for something you did. You do one thing right for every 5 things you do against me. You fuckin take all of your anger and frustration out on me, and you play favorites with all 3 of us kids... I am the one who is the hated kid. You want me to be part of the family, to care about you, to do all this shit, but I hate you so much. Nothing you can ever do will change that. You will bend over as backwards for the girls, but you wont do a thing for me. May as well tell me to get out. I. Hate. You. You never deserved me, you were the one that still makes me feel unimportant, insignificant, and unwanted. I have barely any feelings other than hate, and anger, and boredom, and confusion. Only one person keeps me going on strong, keeps me alive, and makes me feel loved, and wanted... It sure as fuck ain't you. So get the fuck out of my life, and leave me be! Now to return to my faded self...
Iam sowwie.
