I just keep telling myself, I'll be gone in June (Moving to Texas.), that's really the only thing I have to keep me sane. That and the fact that now I'm 18 I can smoke cigarettes whenever I please to calm myself and not kill anybody. I try really hard, I actually do try hard, not to start fights with these people, I have to sit down quietly and try hard as I can to occupy my mind with whatever tripe I can while these idiots go about there lives. The only person in this house that can carry on a good conversation is my dad, but he doesn't talk a lot to me unless no one else is home, he understands that my sister is a fucking retard and no one else is intelligent enough to carry on a simple conversation. But like I said, he rarely talks to me. Can't fucking wait to quit my job and move.