Dear dad:

[jonnyboy9985]

Why I hate you so fucking much.

I hate you because you were never there. You fucked me over, caused me years of confusion. Made me think you were the greatest, when you were an idiot. I hate you because everything you want me to be, is not what I WANT! I am not a fucking slave, I am not your fucking "n***er" as you called me when you grounded me. I hate you for so many reasons. I hate you for everything you did for me, and to me. You mock everything I have ever liked, you crash my dreams of becoming a computer genius, you push me down, you freak out for NO fucking reason, nothing I do is right, nothing you say ever helped me. You were the fuckin reason I went suicidal so many times... 3 times before summer break? Fuckin come on... I locked you out because when I tried to reach out to the world, everyone stepped on me, and expected me to be fine... I tried to stand tall, but all I ever did was get pushed down, again and again. I fucking hate you... The last words I will ever say to you is "I never said I love you, because I don't. I... Hate... You" and I will never understand why you even tried to make up for something you did. You do one thing right for every 5 things you do against me. You fuckin take all of your anger and frustration out on me, and you play favorites with all 3 of us kids... I am the one who is the hated kid. You want me to be part of the family, to care about you, to do all this shit, but I hate you so much. Nothing you can ever do will change that. You will bend over as backwards for the girls, but you wont do a thing for me. May as well tell me to get out. I. Hate. You. You never deserved me, you were the one that still makes me feel unimportant, insignificant, and unwanted. I have barely any feelings other than hate, and anger, and boredom, and confusion. Only one person keeps me going on strong, keeps me alive, and makes me feel loved, and wanted... It sure as fuck ain't you. So get the fuck out of my life, and leave me be! Now to return to my faded self...

[`Bobs Bees]

Why I hate you so fucking much.

I hate you because you were never there. You fucked me over, caused me years of confusion. Made me think you were the greatest, when you were an idiot. I hate you because everything you want me to be, is not what I WANT! I am not a fucking slave, I am not your fucking "n***er" as you called me when you grounded me. I hate you for so many reasons. I hate you for everything you did for me, and to me. You mock everything I have ever liked, you crash my dreams of becoming a computer genius, you push me down, you freak out for NO fucking reason, nothing I do is right, nothing you say ever helped me. You were the fuckin reason I went suicidal so many times... 3 times before summer break? Fuckin come on... I locked you out because when I tried to reach out to the world, everyone stepped on me, and expected me to be fine... I tried to stand tall, but all I ever did was get pushed down, again and again. I fucking hate you... The last words I will ever say to you is "I never said I love you, because I don't. I... Hate... You" and I will never understand why you even tried to make up for something you did. You do one thing right for every 5 things you do against me. You fuckin take all of your anger and frustration out on me, and you play favorites with all 3 of us kids... I am the one who is the hated kid. You want me to be part of the family, to care about you, to do all this shit, but I hate you so much. Nothing you can ever do will change that. You will bend over as backwards for the girls, but you wont do a thing for me. May as well tell me to get out. I. Hate. You. You never deserved me, you were the one that still makes me feel unimportant, insignificant, and unwanted. I have barely any feelings other than hate, and anger, and boredom, and confusion. Only one person keeps me going on strong, keeps me alive, and makes me feel loved, and wanted... It sure as fuck ain't you. So get the fuck out of my life, and leave me be! Now to return to my faded self...

I am your father.
Iam sowwie.

[jonnyboy9985]

Nice try... My dad is too stupid to be on a site like this

[matjuh123]

Hits me deep. Good luck with this.

[jonnyboy9985]

Thanks man... That is the real me, which no one can see, unless I tell them...

[matjuh123]

I don't know what it is when your parents don't support you. My parents always support me. I'm a want to be a director later, they fully support me. I'm 13, and I'm thinking about making a awesome 5 min. movie already. This story could help me with that.

[jonnyboy9985]

My dad called everything I ever liked doing down... Playing video games, making video games, coding in C++, learning parkour, my personality, and everything else... He was even not even partially appealed to the fact that I did not want to go camping... I tried so hard to get him to care, but now I don't want to... He said it won't kill me to do some stuff he likes to do? I could say the same thing...

[matjuh123]

Does your mother has anything to do with this situation? If I were you, I would talk to her about this. Maybe she's the only one that could talk to your father, but I think you already did this...

[jonnyboy9985]

I told her, but she does dick all...

[matjuh123]

Is there nobody you could talk with? Brothers/Sisters? Maybe teachers? I don't know. Who do you trust? I think there should be a solution to this.

Or try to do the things your father wants you to do, maybe that will help, only if it's for a short time.

Just trying to help you.

[Comet]

Dude, your lucky to fucking have a dad.
Love him while he's alive.

[jonnyboy9985]

I don't trust anyone but my girlfriend... Family means nothing to me...

[matjuh123]

I don't trust anyone but my girlfriend... Family means nothing to me...

I think I did everything I can here. Just try to talk, when that doesn't work, try to talk to someone you trust. Maybe they can help you in anyway.

Good luck dude!

[☆ No. 5 ☆]

This text is really sad. You should try writing lyrics/songtexts like me,...the others may laugh about it, but it helps A LOT!

I don't trust anyone but my girlfriend... Family means nothing to me...

But you have to know: Your dad is not your whole family!

[jonnyboy9985]

Dude, your lucky to fucking have a dad.
Love him while he's alive.

Bullshit... I wish he was dead! I was asked if I would even care if my dad were to die tomorrow... I knew the answer was no, so fast, I didn't even think it was possible... I would just hope to god I do not meet him, when he is in his next life

But you have to know: Your dad is not your whole family!

and yes I do know, but even they either avoid me, or I don't like them.