Mourning Process
So recently one of my favourite artists for a long time has died (XXXTENTACION) and I have been absolutely heart broken and in despair since.
I only listen to like 3 artists usually everyday and him being one of them his music has been important in my daily life for a while now. When I found out he had died I was shocked because it was all of a sudden and it didnt hit me that hard until later in the day when I tried listening to one of his songs and I just felt so sick and upset in my heart. Recently, I serial listened to his songs and I feel the meaning even more and its really tragic because in a lot of his music he talks about envisioning a better life or making himself better. I think also watching his livestreams and interviews makes me believe that he was a great person and the way he was brought up throughout his childhood made him what he was before. I believe he was bettering his life and it was taken too soon.
What makes me so sad is that we will never see him again and he wont be able to witness him achieving his full potential. Another loss for me is that I wont get to see anymore music coming from him for the rest of my life. Without my favourite artist I feel lost and as if someone close to me has died. Coming from a difficult upbringing of a lot of social responsibility and background struggles, his music was pivotal as it was a form of communication to those suffering like him.
Something positive is that if you are religious the main abrahamic religions state that if you are killed and innocent by someone else, you will be given heaven no matter the sins you committed. The sad part being the only way to see him again would be over 60 years most likely for me.
As X said in one of his songs, I feel pain just to hold on to his memory and people would suggest the only way to get over the depression is to forget about him. But I never want to forget, I believe he is someone special and I must always remember the impact he had on my life. I dont want to forget but in order to heal the pain I must.
Now I ask you fellow MPGH members, how do you deal with a death.
Ever since X died I have felt a deep sadness and I dont think I will ever be fully happy again.
I only listen to like 3 artists usually everyday and him being one of them his music has been important in my daily life for a while now. When I found out he had died I was shocked because it was all of a sudden and it didnt hit me that hard until later in the day when I tried listening to one of his songs and I just felt so sick and upset in my heart. Recently, I serial listened to his songs and I feel the meaning even more and its really tragic because in a lot of his music he talks about envisioning a better life or making himself better. I think also watching his livestreams and interviews makes me believe that he was a great person and the way he was brought up throughout his childhood made him what he was before. I believe he was bettering his life and it was taken too soon.
What makes me so sad is that we will never see him again and he wont be able to witness him achieving his full potential. Another loss for me is that I wont get to see anymore music coming from him for the rest of my life. Without my favourite artist I feel lost and as if someone close to me has died. Coming from a difficult upbringing of a lot of social responsibility and background struggles, his music was pivotal as it was a form of communication to those suffering like him.
Something positive is that if you are religious the main abrahamic religions state that if you are killed and innocent by someone else, you will be given heaven no matter the sins you committed. The sad part being the only way to see him again would be over 60 years most likely for me.
As X said in one of his songs, I feel pain just to hold on to his memory and people would suggest the only way to get over the depression is to forget about him. But I never want to forget, I believe he is someone special and I must always remember the impact he had on my life. I dont want to forget but in order to heal the pain I must.
Now I ask you fellow MPGH members, how do you deal with a death.
Ever since X died I have felt a deep sadness and I dont think I will ever be fully happy again.
Originally Posted by Watm8
