Do you guys also sometimes wonder?

Originally Posted by Gray

I do not only think about it when I'm down, the thought of dying always and always cross my mind, I can relate literally anything to dying.
I'm kind of used to it now, but it's still bothersome to never find peace and quiet in your own head or while you sleep.

Its annoying as shet, and this is where it comes to my mind that life and people are literally trying to drag you down and that is where I get my inspiration back to shut up about what I'm currently thinking and pick myself up. Its fucken rediculous that it has to be done like that, but yeah, life ain't goin easy on us

Originally Posted by Snake

Its annoying as shet, and this is where it comes to my mind that life and people are literally trying to drag you down and that is where I get my inspiration back to shut up about what I'm currently thinking and pick myself up. Its fucken rediculous that it has to be done like that, but yeah, life ain't goin easy on us

Not much left, but still dying inside.

Originally Posted by Snake

I'm not feeling down at the moment, so feeling you is hard for me. I do get your point though, and it makes damn sense.

Sorry, my English could be better, I try to write as good as possible.

Originally Posted by Vine

Sorry, my English could be better, I try to write as good as possible.

Your english is as fine as could be. Don't worry about that haha

We were made by Jesus and to Jesus we will return

I actually thought about this in a different way... What happens when you die? Where do you go? Is it like sleep where sometimes you dont think of anything. Thats a little sad and scary at times. Everything you done, gone in a moments notice. Makes you think huh

I've wondered a few times though media like Serial Experiments Lain, Kino's Journey and Mushishi really made me stop and think about my existence.

Man fuck those thoughts. I live life to the fullest.

Partying, smoking.. Man, why so depressed?

Whenever I think of my own existence I think about ants. Unbelievably small in comparison with the universe but yet ants still march on living their life even though someone like me, who lives a life very similar can come in at any time and steal it's life. It helps me remember that my existence in the end is no different from the ant and can be wiped out at any time by an outside force. While thinking this I can't help but remember a quote from Mushishi
"Do not allow yourself to be blinded by fear or anger. Everything is only as it is."

The quote reminds me that even if I died today, even if someone I loved died today or even if the world came to an end today in the end it truly wouldn't matter. Sounds pretty pessimistic and depressing but it's more of a realization of my own existence and how unimportant it truly is. In the end all I want is a long enjoyable life, I'm not naive enough to believe in a god nor am I pessimistic enough to think about death all the time. I try to grasp the things I can understand and push the things that are beyond current human understanding away with simplistic answers such as these so I can make use of the time I have.