Well today i failed.
For the first time in 8 years that i've had this on and off depression i finally snapped.
Today first time in 8 years that i've cried and i dont even know why.
I've finally told someone in my family about this, my mother, since i know how this road can end and in the past i've been pretty damn close.
I keep on just randomly falling apart, bursting into tears and its pissing me off, i've been able to hold it back for this long and always thought i was strong enough to keep it as just a personal issue.
Don't know where to go, who to tell or what to do.
Everyone that knows me(IRL) knows me as the guy thats always smiling and joking since that's how i coped with it.
Fml, it would be nice to just end it all, but i won't.
If my posts make little to no sense or kind of go all over the place ect its because i have a million thoughts going on in my head atm.