Time for me to bitch about my life.

[kaysnd7]

A little background about me. I've never went to public high school, i was in normal schooling through 9th grade, and started cyber school in 10th. I did this because it was better for my schedule and it allowed me to take a greater amount of classes at one time.
For three fucking years I've been working my ass off, taking extra courses, accelerated courses, and 3-4 summer courses as well. I skipped a grade ahead of my normal class.
Okay why am i telling you this? Well the main reason for earlier grad is because i want to get on with my life, I'm sick of relying on my family. I want to get a job, and have money for what I want, and move out later in the year.

BUT I can't get a job, Why? No ride. You'd think I should get a licence..

Well I've had my permit for about a year, and my parents only took me driving about 5-6 times for 20 minutes or so. They won't take me on roads with traffic lights and shit. I can drive alright, granted, but no one will take me for fucking long enough or even some where meaningful/helpful, they won't even teach me to parallel park.

So why don't they take me? Well my dad works everyday and is always busy, so he doesn't have time.
YET my mom has been on disability/layoff or whatever because of a surgery that happened in JANUARY. Yet she wont fucking spare the time to take me? She's been able to drive for weeks. Every time I ask, she says oh I can't.. my boyfriend is off blah blah blah (divorced parents) So what i'm working around her schedule and its FUCKING me over? Yet when I talk to her about it she claims it's me. I tell her i'm free every fucking morning (7am or so till) before 3 pm, and all day Tuesday and Wednesday. But no, she doesn't want to do shit until her bf, she lives with and sees EVERYDAY, is gone. And then she has the nerve to say shes working around my schedule, fuck that. She was supposed to sign me up for a gym (MY SCHOOL PAYS FOR) And I can't do it due to underage, and she still hasn't, It's been four months. And now shes bitching saying I won't go to it, because I don't have time? If anyone doesn't have time it's her. I've been fucking begging her forever.

I needed to have my license by mid April, and lose some more weight. (been on a diet since December lost 24 pounds, but i need to exercise.) There's something important to be coming up.

I told her I'm done with everything, and i'm sick of dealing with this shit.

What should I do? What can I do. I feel like my mother doesn't give a fuck about anyone but herself. Every time we talk about it we fight, then she makes me feel guilty as fuck afterwards.

To sum it up. I'm pissed off because my mother doesn't have the time of day to teach my how to drive. I worked my ass off so i could get out of this situation and I still can't because I can't get a job. I needed to be signed up for something and she put it off way to long.