I Feel Sick
I have not smiled for the past week. It seems every smile I make is in my class which is forced, It gives me a head ache, when I have to 'fake laugh' at my friends jokes. Which I no longer feel are my friends, How do you know someone is your friend. I don't know if my friends are "playing around" when they punch me but it is painful. And when they ignore me and talk to my friends I end up just following, then being ignored. Last launch time I spent at math studying for a test. I don't really have fun in life anymore, Its like nothing ever nice happens to me. Let alone exciting. I am fucking sick of it. Its just continuous, It gets boaring. Lets see tomorrow, Visit mpgh. Programm.........Play Gunz for 1 hour. Eat, programm...Sleep. My day is boaring. I don't have fun playing anything anymore, no matter what it is. I tried four different games today, I couldn't be interested one bit.
When ever we do a 2 person activity it ends up as I am the last picked. In a group activity, I always end up with fat loud slackers. And I get in trouble for telling them to be quite during a presentation. last gym class I heard "Aww we have jeremy as a golly" how do you respond to that. I just ignored it. I don't know what to say. "Your right I do suck" I do suck at golly but she was not any better. I am just sick of being the loser. Grade 3 to now. Ugh I know alot of other people are in the same situation.
When ever we do a 2 person activity it ends up as I am the last picked. In a group activity, I always end up with fat loud slackers. And I get in trouble for telling them to be quite during a presentation. last gym class I heard "Aww we have jeremy as a golly" how do you respond to that. I just ignored it. I don't know what to say. "Your right I do suck" I do suck at golly but she was not any better. I am just sick of being the loser. Grade 3 to now. Ugh I know alot of other people are in the same situation.



(You will also learn how to fight, after matches there's usually a lot of heat... It just happens, there are people who take it too seriously and WILL try to take you out of the game, but after the game you go settle it with your pals. 