at first,

and I love you so much,
at least, at first.
Tears streamed down my face
as I thought about the you used to be,
before the darkness crept in & changed you.
Most of the time
i'm driving myself crazy with thoughts of you in my head,
constantly reminding me that you'll never be the same,
constantly reminding me of how painful it can be to see the people you love go.
Under the paleness of the winter moonlight,
I dreamed of kissing you lips & caressing your body,
swaying to the sound of a heart being broken.
And I love you, at least,
at first